Miriam found herself in a situation that forced her to think about whether she was straight, homosexual or even bisexual. How did it end up for her?
“I have never had problems with my sexuality. From a young age I liked boys, later men. I enjoy sex with a man and I dare to say that in the field of sex I have always been the one who liked to try new things and was brave”, begins our reader Miriam (27), who was forced to solve a dilemma regarding her sexual orientation for a while. .
As she herself admits, it all started quite innocently, with one experiment that was the culmination of a drunken evening. “Well, it was more than just a drink, I’ll admit, and so it happened that I was introduced to my friend’s friend in a bar. Unfortunately, the new friend was a gay woman who had already dealt with it and was open about her experiences with women. All that evening I felt her looks on me, as well as innocent touches on my eyes. I’m not saying that I was excited about it, it was more of a challenge for me to see how far I can go in my experiences. Besides, as I say, there was alcohol in it and that is a really bad advisor… Suddenly I don’t even know how she was doing it with her mouth in the toilets and then I was really excited like never before. It was fast, spontaneous, and risky, which I liked more than anything”, admits Miriam openly.
After a while, Miriam pushed this memory to a corner of her mind and continued “traditional” sexual practices with men. Later, she even found a serious acquaintance, Michal (30), for whom sex was just as much about playing, trying, and that’s why Miriam never got bored with him. “For the sake of variety, we also started playing such “light” porn scenes as a prelude that enticed us. Of course, we also came across lesbian porn scenes among them. Michal played one of them, but after a while he wanted to close them, he says he knows that I definitely don’t want to watch two women, and that we will play classic porn, a man and a woman. I don’t even know why, my reaction was that he should not close it, that we would watch it together. And so it happened that he, as a man, was having sex with me and at the same time watching how lesbians do it, he was absolutely excited and turned on like he had never been with me before. Well, I found that it excites me just as much. That I was as aroused as never before and I wanted to see it the next time it happened to Michal and me,” continues Miriam.
After these experiences, she began to ask herself whether she might be differently oriented or bisexual. When she couldn’t deal with it anymore and she really cared about her boyfriend, she decided to tell him the truth. “It was the hardest and most embarrassing thing I had to admit, but my friend’s reaction was beyond my expectations. He looked at it logically, without unnecessary emotions, which I probably couldn’t do until then. He asked me if I was more attracted to sex with a woman than sex with him. I could clearly answer no to that. He then asked if I loved him and I said yes without thinking. He smiled at me, because I hadn’t told him until then, kissed him and said that then everything is fine, and when the sight of two women doing it brings me pleasure, then he will be happy to share this sight with me. Since then I have been with him for another two years and we are planning a wedding. From time to time we also watch the mentioned lesbian porn, but we don’t overdo it and although it still excites me, thanks to Michal I understood that I shouldn’t worry about it anymore and take it as it is”, she ends her story with a happy ending.
What to add? After all, we all have some tastes that we don’t admit to those around us, even to our best friend, right?